What Happened When I Drank Alcohol...

Last night I drank alcohol for the first time in such a long time and it was so interesting to see the effect it had on my energy.

For context- I stopped drinking alcohol around 3.5 years ago, minus the very occasional glass of wine

I had maybe 4 or 5 sips of a really yummy gin & tonic (it had cinnamon, cardamom, and lime) and then watched how my energy started to drop.

I had been so open and happy all night- dancing, enjoying the live music, and feeling pretty peaceful on the inside, and towards the end of the night I decided to have a few sips of a gin & tonic because why not.

It tasted good and I hadn’t drinken in so long I kind of forgot what it was like.. I used to drink a lot and at the time I really “enjoyed” it so I wanted to remember what it was like.

Within 5 minutes I started feeling the effects of the alcohol on my being.

At first I became a bit more chatty with my friend sitting next to me, but after 5-10 minutes when the conversation paused, I noticed what was really going on inside of me.

Where was this chattiness coming from?

I noticed the changes in my energy level (I’ve become pretty aware of how sensitive I am over the past few years- energetically, emotionally and physically).

Within a minute of sitting with myself and observing the changes in my energy, I noticed the quality of my thoughts were different too.. More self-conscious and less happy.

Physically I felt heavier. I had less energy to dance. I felt less peaceful and more in my head. My thoughts were different and my energy had more of a depressive undertone to it.

I was fascinated..

I turned to my friend who also doesn’t usually drink either (more context- there were unlimited cocktails that kept coming to our tables at the event we were at) and he said he felt the same thing.

It kind of blew my mind that this is what I used to love doing or that this is how I used to “loosen up” or connect with people.

This morning when I woke up I did some Reiki on myself as I often do, and afterwards I noticed the effect of the alcohol still lingering around me. It was as if there was some energy that was attaching on to me that didn’t belong to me.

So I showered and cleared the energy, amazed that I never used to notice how alcohol really affected me.

Anyone else ever play with this awareness of how alcohol affects you?

Pic from a few months ago in Mexico :)